||In need of coffee...
Holy crap to having a whole lot of things happening recently, or at least since my last post (which has also been quite some time, this I know). All mostly good things, some questionable... No. All good... For the most part anyways...
Let's start back to about a month ago when I decided to take a leave of absence from school. Well, I did just that. Sat through one of my last days of school thinking about just getting out of there for a while. Like, I didn't pay attention for one second (not exaggerating in the slightest either) in either of the three classes I went to that day. I only remember hating life and being horribly sad and wishing I was somewhere else. Thinking about work and manager training in Rochester for two weeks (get to that a bit later) and wanting/needing to move out and just needing an overall break from school. The biggest question bouncing around my head that day was "Do I really want to become an art teacher?" That question is still riding around my mind and I play a tug-of-war with it daily. I honestly have no idea. My game plan, which seems to be ready to stray everyday, is I want to take a summer class or two and then go back to Buff State in the fall part-time and try to ease myself back into school and such. I just don't know if I can do it, no, I don't know if I want to do it... Everything in that department is up in the air.
On to the work thing. Had to go to Rochester (Henrietta to be exact) for the past two weeks for management training at a PetSmart there. PetSmart put me up in a hotel for the two weeks and gave me $35 a day for food- whether I used it at Wegmans or at a restaurant was my decision. I had $35/day for food purposes which was awesome, though I rarely came close to spending my daily allowance. They're also paying for 'drive time', which I'm not sure how that's calculated but whatever. I'm anticipating a little bit of a bonus check of sorts in the near future. The best part of the past two weeks in Rochester was the hotel. The PetSmart up there was awfulawful and I spent the whole first week in an office with a dud of another manager-trainee doing book work things and looking things up on Fetch (PetSmart's network of company related information and updates and the like). Shoot me in the face. The next week was spent learning things that I've been doing for the past month+ as manager since I've been in the position since February 5th. Again, horrid horrid gunfire to my head. The people were dull as dull can be and they weren't personable with anyone really, especially co-workers, which I found incredibly odd because we are such a unit, a family, at my store so to go to that was really mindboggling. The second week too, I was supposed to shadow one of the managers but only worked with him twice (thankfully) because he got sick and called in the other few days... Yeah, real good training there people. 652 points to you. For sure. In between all that I came home on the weekends to basically hang at Stephanie's and drink. One of the best times being St. Patrick's Day. Holla at that muthafuckas!
Before all that, went to see PINK and Justin Timberlake on February 18th and that was fucking fantastic. Turned 22 which was spent in Fredonia (mostly) for Jaime's Senior Recital and a brilliant drag show on campus. (!!!) Fabulous. Oh, and I got into a car accident as well. That was on February 22nd. Rather minor, but still. There's an estimated $1700+ damage to Penelope, though its being paid for cos the accident wasn't my fault, so that's good. Sucks, but still good. That game plan is to get her fixed (which could be done rather inexpensively by going to the shop I normally go to. Meaning I could get everything all fixed up with roughly a grand pocketed from that by me. Booty.)
Also fell in love with Polaroids. Bought a Polaroid camera last week and its brilliant. Expensive, but brilliant. It'll hold me over 'til I research and buy a new digital camera.
In the near future: Steph seems like she is going to kidnap me if I don't willingly move out by April 1st, so we'll see how that goes. I mean, I'm completelycompletely for it, obviously. Its just riding down to talking with Mommy dearest and having that go well. New season of WorkOut starts tomorrow!!! Also, new tattoo on April 13th with Jessica from Red House. Fucking STOKED. John Mayer at HSBC Arena on April 21st.
On a side note: I recently found out about a newer song of Pink's (a bonus track on the UK release of I'm Not Dead) called "Fingers" and I can not stop listening to it. Steph told me about it cos she watched Pink's concert on MSN.com and she performed it. I was unaware of it 'til then and then Steph showed me the video clip of the concert and I immediately ordered the UK release of I'm Not Dead from amazon.co.uk. Pure, self-pleasuring, delightful, ecstatic, musical goodness. (Ps- The song is about masturbation. Hott.)
I have come back from this two weeks away in Hellchester with a renewed sense of self and self-reliance. I feel motivated to do do do and such. Its strange that in hating my life for the past two weeks as much as I have, to come out of it and feel as I do. I'm wanting to paint and workout and eat better and save money and move out and try to figure out what the hell I want to do with my life (career-wise) and so on and so forth. I really really hope that this new-found motivation will last longer than a week or so. These next few weeks should remain quite interesting to say the least. Here's hoping for the best in all situations, now and always.